I find myself writing some blocky, awkward sentences but if I rush past them, I get into the sweet stuff. Later, next week, probably, I'll go back and cut out the blocky stuff. I'll be frank, the awkward sentences bother me. I'm no Harlan Ellison but I usually write pretty decent first drafts. So these rough spots...
But I'm giving myself permission to suck, so long as I don't let the awkward stuff block me and keep writing, I figure I can fix the ick later.
I've been reading Neil Gaiman's Anansi's Boys and...not really enjoying it. Which is odd, because his short stories are some of the best things I've ever read. But here's my problem so far (and keep in mind, I'm not all the way done yet): I don't like the main characters. Fat Charlie is awkward and passive. At first that made him a bit sympathetic but by now, I'm tired of him. I don't like his fiance, who's decided she doesn't want to marry Fat Charlie after falling in love with his 'brother', Spider. I don't like Spider, who is selfish and thoughtlessly cruel but at least has the saving grace of being entertaining. I think I see where the plot is going and I don't like that, either.
Maybe it's just me and my delight in heroism and heroes. I like larger than life people or at the very least, ordinary people who rise to the occasion when the time comes. Fat Charlie keeps going to other people, asking them to solve his problems for him. That might fit for some fairy tales but not the fairy tales I love to read. Maybe there' some weird English defeatism there, that doesn't trust in heroes or asserting yourself and wants to just stand by the side of the wall and make snide comments.